So guys things have been really hard getting this project finished. I've hit a few unforeseen problems, nothing to do with the film. It's all been health related issues that's been keeping me back. I'm not trying to offer excuses here I just want to be honest in this post.
During the last year to 2 years I've noticed in myself I've not been as motivated, procrastination hits hard and I find it hard to focus and concentrate. That's not a good thing. I went to find out if the painkiller medication I've been taking for my back problem could be the issue. Turns out that yeah the last 7 to 8 years of medicating the problem to keep going to get through the working weeks is starting to have a real nasty affect on my health. I wouldn't say I've got an addiction YET but my body has started to build some dependency on the painkillers. The lack of concentration and focus, and the procrastination are the early warning signs that if I don't sort this now God knows where I'll be 2 years from now.
On top of that I wrecked my back once again at my full time job which means starting to wean myself off the medication isn't really an option right now. Not gonna lie this is a nasty feeling to have.
It sucks so bad when you finally realise you haven't been fully sober for the better part of a decade just so you can keep yourself going to get your weeks work done so you can get paid. Basically I've been choosing money over my health.
Thats no way to live.
So yeah this has turned into a very personal blog. Right back to the film
Conclusions is really starting to look great. I would say the next couple of weeks will see the final cut. We still have the score to work out but the first full cut of the film is just about there. I'm so grateful to the legends that have both supported and helped get this film to this stage.
Guys sorry for this blog getting far too personal but I thought it was about time everyone that supports both the short film and online video content I make gets to know exactly what's been happening.
Anyway. I hope whatever you are doing you are doing it in good health
Dont let em stop you.